My Lack of Self Control

Was going to do Groundstreet Radio tonight, but lost my mojo. I'm depressed and scared because I haven't been depressed in a while, and the last time, it was horrible. It is something that I can't seem to shake. I have researched different ways of getting rid of it, but the only one that jumps out at me at the moment is microdosing psychedelics. I'm going to research it further, but it sounds good at the moment. Read more at Mushroomz.co if you are interested yourself. If this is something that you are going through too, I wish I could help more than that - because I understand the struggles you are going through - but I can't. Click Here to hopefully find a way to help you relieve these symptoms, however, as it is not impossible to finally get your life back on track. You could alternatively check out websites similar to https://www.canadacannabisdispensary.ca/ to see if you can find the right solution for you. Since I started school in America I've gained 100 pounds. It seems unbelievable yes since I've only been here for about six months, and besides, I don't look at it, but it's true. Every effort I've made to lose weight has tanked, and instead, I've just gained more. As a result of these uncontrollable food cravings and weight gain, my friend advised me to take care of my gut health. In addition, she also suggested trying supplements like Total Restore formula, which may help calm my mind and motivate me to lose weight. But I was in a fit of desperation yesterday! (My ex-boyfriend is coming here in a few months, and in order to win him back I can't let him see me like this). So, I resorted to my last hope, my secret weapon, the BEYONCE diet.

Yes, the infamous diet that made Beyonce skeletally thin in just under a month for her Dreamgirls role.

Last night I went on a rampage.

21 x (2 tablespoons of Maple syrup + 2 tablespoons of Lemon Juice + 1/2 teaspoon of Cayenne Pepper + 8 ounces of water)

If you're any good at math, the answer is: Yes, I made twenty-one bottles of the stuff and stashed in my fridge.

I am not going to eat any food for the next seven days.

My starting weight was 222.2 lbs.

I measured my body, and wrote down my measurements, I shan't post them here until they're within a decent range, but I can say this. My hips now measure 45.2 inches around... oh dear. I am not only a thigh monster but a hip, tit, and tummy monster too.

I need everyone's prayers on this one. I need help!