It is what it is. I sabotaged another potentially good relationship and lost my friend in the process. You can only cry so much which is what I've been doing. I cry until I'm exhausted and then I pass out and wake up with no idea where I am or what happened until it all filters back in. I'm terribly sad but at the same time I don't feel too bad because I've been through this before and I know what to expect. I might be crying myself to sleep right now but I also know that one morning I will wake up and my pillow will be dry, and there'll be nothing but a dull ache in my heart and each morning the ache will grow less and less until one day I'll open my eyes and the pain will be gone.
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